9 months (the Berlin chronicles. A part 1)
18 - on August, 19th. The Roman days off (Day)
As it will be found out after some weeks and there was a day H from which it is possible to count age of our posterity. Though probably our posterity and for some days is more younger, there can be it has appeared in Dresden or for some days later in Berlin.
On August, 20th - on September, 13th. And we feel nothing (2th - 5th week)
Heard, that some future mums ostensibly right after whence know conceptions, that have become pregnant. A classical example - Maiden Maria and the good message brought to it though other examples are ostensibly known also.
No, at me was not as in that joke: will give way to the pregnant girl who has become pregnant 10 minutes ago. I about what did not suspect. Continued to make experiments in laboratory, searched for new work, went on two disturbing interviews in the different ends of Germany. These interviews had literally one behind another, before some months successively any interview were not planned. In previous half a year in expectation of the great moment has decided not to abuse even a glass of wine and constantly adhered to this rule. But here has thought, that the strict Prohibition for long months can be not too necessary, and some times intensively tried to learn that true, which in fault. As the congestion of worthy occasions has just stood out: our five years' anniversary noted in the German capital and once again next day in an eternal city; My birthday, right after a wearisome trip on interview, and approximately one week later once again it otmechanie with friends.
On September, 14th - on September, 17th. A good message (6th week)
The first vague suspicions start to creep in by fifth week, but I try not to concentrate too on them and strongly in advance not to be encouraged. For example, this aggravated sensitivity of a breast or weight in feet, for certain, it before the beginning of the next cycle. « And also do not forget about cases of strongly hypochondriac women at which imaginary pregnancy »was played, - I speak to myself. The cycle does not begin, I show enviable endurance, forcing themselves to wait for reliability even 3 days, and only then, on Friday evening, I buy the treasured test. I will make it on Saturday morning, Daniels just in Berlin and if, the truth, is vygljadit hopefully, I can to show to it at once. On Saturday I wake up the first, I creep in a bath, superexcitation is not present. Minute I look at a damp plate. I am almost assured, that there will be 2 strips as though I repeat well familiar chemical experiment which result is known for a long time. Absolutely easy I behold two appeared bright strips of an identical thickness. Yes, for this experiment it is the unique result. Simply ascertaining of the fact.
I know, tests not always on 100 % are exact, it is all only colour reaction to surplus of a certain hormone. It is necessary to wait for Monday and to descend to the doctor. Especially painful expectation was not, now even plainly I can not recollect, than we were engaged in those two days off. On Monday (almost round date: 5 years and 1 month from the date of our wedding) I visit the doctor, on ultrasonic it is visible small tochechka which definitively confirms all assumptions. It it, a germ. To stand in the middle of street and to cry out in a mobile phone to me it would not be desirable, I reach the car, I get inside and I call Daniel: we have bred. In the evening after work I will call the parents and Nike. I should go for work and to come back to labour everyday life. I sit in the laboratory at the computer and labour everyday life seems strange unnecessary vanity as it is possible to pour from a test tube in a test tube when such event here has come true. The sense from me on work has not enough, all time would be desirable to get listing of ultrasonic from a bag and, not ceasing, it to examine, but constrains presence of colleagues. Then I come on one of pregnant forums and I open a new theme: «As you have spent that day when have learnt, what zaberemenili?» Answers rain down, is similar that their reading is the only thing, than I can be engaged today.
On September, 18th - on September, 30th. Many pink things (6th - 7th week)
The next days my efficiency not strongly above, besides small tochechki in mine absolutely flat stomach, all the rest seems small and insignificant. I infinitely stay on every possible pregnant sites, I study the pregnancy calendar, what changes have occurred at my germ the last weeks while nobody knew about it, attentively I read, that occurs this week, and also I run for many weeks in before, as though in attempt to accelerate time. I would like, that a certain photomontage has been made, and the posterity already now would be born so long to wait I does not agree. Daniels tells to me by phone that has already visited shop of children's clothes in Dresden. The predatory saleswoman has there and then flown up to it, probably, intending vsuchit the most stale goods to the uneasy father. «How many to your child?» - she has asked. «The minus eight months» - has followed the answer.
During week-end we make a trip to local Brandenburg "collective farm", for a small payment it is possible most to break from trees apples, pears, plums. Now, of course, first of all vitamins and fresh air.
In laboratory I should be informed at once almost to the professor on mine changed position. To please him it cannot in any way, from all employees of children is not present at anybody, children in general are somehow badly compatible too to much in this German life, but hide the position I too I can not, as my work is not absolutely safe. I hope, that me will replace in a separate room where I will be lazy something podelyvat on the computer. The professor accepts prineprijatnejshuju a message to data, but the circle of my duties does not change in any way, at once, after some days.
I come to the acquaintance who works in a drugstore. It carries out to me the test to check up a condition of vessels standing. By results of the test very much advises to carry kompressionnye stockings. I order this miracle of orthopedic manufacture, stockings so hard, that houses are slipped for the first time by thought: «To me inside not to get never». That they are recommended for carrying daily since morning and till the evening I try not to think yet.
I wish to be well informed future mother, I get magazine release «Pregnancy and childbirth» and I order on the house two children's catalogues. In magazine the keen interest is caused only by articles about the most initial stages of pregnancy, materials about second half of pregnancy are looked through on a diagonal, is faster with a certain bewilderment, section about sorts I pass absolutely as though it does not threaten me never. The catalogue frightens of abundance of every possible models of all existing children's goods, appointment of some subjects remains not up to the end clear, from variety the head is turned what to buy in the future absolutely not clearly and if everything, that is presented on glossy pages, it is really necessary for care of newborn numerous accounts on one thousand euro are represented.
During week-end in shop, in department of children's clothes, I choose things for the newborn niece. Things for girls where as are more beautiful and more various. «I hope, these are last things of pink colour which to you should be bought», - notices Daniels.
On October, 1st - on October, 7th. In searches (8th week)
Taking two more holiday money of day after day of association of Germany, we begin search of new apartment in Dresden. Before my dream there was a two-level apartment, is possible with a huge verandah round last mansard floor, and also popular cult bars and small restaurants in immediate proximity from the house. Now I am boring and pragmatic. I wish to live not above the second floor, the area should be silent and green, I endlessly set questions: whether «against you of tenants with children? Whether» and «there is enough place at an entrance to put a carriage?» Two-level apartments with their narrow spiral staircases are forgotten for ever. Apartments cause in me moderate interest, to me tiresomely to be dragged on the top floors or long to stand in the middle of empty apartment, listening to verbalisations of the room broker. Sometimes there come attacks of unexpected hunger that seems if I now do not bite off from one of apples which constantly lay now at me in a bag further to live it will be simply impossible. The Same hunger usually every morning, then I at a tort direct on kitchen to bite off though from something.
On Saturday I visit a hairdressing salon. It already the second visiting during the pregnancy, the first has passed, when to a germ was couple of days from a sort. I recollect a sign, that the pregnant woman should not cut all pregnancy hair. That will be, if she all the same to dare to cut them, I fortunately do not remember. Speaking to itself: «Down with vestiges and prejudices», - I am regularly cut and am painted. Pregnancy – not an occasion to look as a garden stuffed animal.
(May 2008)
Author: Viktoria